For the last 24 hours I’ve been celebrating my birthday my birthday. Happy New Year to me! I enter a new chapter of my life with joy, enthusiasm, gratitude, and excitement.
About ten years ago I began giving a theme to each new year, birthday to birthday. There’s been the Year of Quickening, the Year of Reckoning, the Year of Transformation, and so on. A few weeks before my new year actually begins, I sit in stillness, take walks and listen for the name. It always comes.
This year the theme is Alignment. In the last year and a half, my life has changed significantly:
- I started a new relationship
- moved to a new city
- went from full-time employment to unemployed/self-employed
- came to some new understandings about myself, or more precisely, simply cycled back to remembering things I’ve known all along
From the time I can remember I’ve always had a strong sense of purpose, though I couldn’t quite say what exactly it was. The strength of that purpose compelled me and for much of my life – all of it really, until now – I made decisions about what to do or what not to do (become a teacher, get a PhD, etc.) according to intuitions that told me if I would end up closer to or further away from my purpose.
As 2012 came to a close, I realized that I’d spent the year getting comfortable with the new and first-time clarity about what I am here to do, getting comfortable with the possibility of answering yes or no to the question “am I doing what I’m here to do?” And 2012 I experienced what I call “divine alignment”. As I experienced the joy of feeling as if at any given moment I was in exactly the place I was meant to be a set of check and questions came to me, guideposts by which to consider the day, the week, the month, the lifetime:
- Am I in divine alignment?
- If not, why not? What does my resistance look like?
- If so, what does my surrender look like? What would the next level of surrender it look like?
In late 2011, I decided to move to Philly for love. I prayed about it and felt this decision was definitely in alignment. I was going to save money, move in the warm months – you know, do it prudently, safely. In November I had a dream which showed me that my careful plan was nonsense, that by going in what I thought was a straight line I would actually be going in a circle. No, I needed to move by the end of December – in six weeks, not six months. By making the decision to move I had been in alignment but more was required. My resistance looked like “but…” And “I don’t…” and waiting to get the ball in motion to actually move that quickly. Nonetheless, I leapt. I surrendered. Allah handled everything that could have been an obstacle. I was in Philly by December 28th.
Fear and bewilderment had me phasing in and out of alignment in 2012, or at least had me feeling as though I was phasing in and out of it. in 2013, I intend to be courageous. What’s the point if I’m not? I’ve been waiting my whole life to know what I now know about my particular purpose. So what does every day look like an alignment? Inshallah I’m looking forward to finding out. Happy New Year indeed!
As the year gets rolling I invite you to consider these checking questions for yourself.
Wishing all of us courage as we each seek to fulfill our unique and divine purposes! Let’s love one another in the process. Ashe. Salaam. Shalom. Inshallah, inshallah, inshallah.