Ramadan 2012 Blog: Waz Intro

I grew up observing Ramadan all my life and often had a mix of emotions that went a little like this:

dread and nervousness that I would mess up and not be able to keep my fast followed by intense guilt because HOW COULD I DREAD such a holy time?!

In high school I was usually able to observe all 30 days because I was underweight (a combination of an awesome eating disorder I developed after dreams of wanting to be a ballerina) and I was experiencing amenorrhea. Baba (my dad) would joke that there weren’t even men who could do all thirty days.

In college, I only had my friend Sana that I did iftars with. And although, I didn’t have much more of a community, I observed nevertheless. I knew what Ramadan was about and for… and the lessons I could learn from it, but I don’t honestly believe I ever felt connected to observing the month in a way that I do this year.

I have been anticipating this holy month in my heart for so long. I have been preparing myself for the task of observing my fast during a hot, humid NYC summer and downloaded two azaan apps to let me know when it is time to pray.

As an educator, I have been preparing my school community: prepping a prayer room for students and staff and thinking ahead to two/three years from now and hosting iftars at the school (when the entire school is in session and not just summer camp/summer school students).

As someone who is newly part of a queer and progressive Muslim community, I feel like I get to be the Muslim me for the first time ever. I don’t have to explain things to others; I don’t have to go to a separate space to pray; I get to authentically be Muslim with others who love Islam and we do it alongside one another.

“Ramazan is not about just keeping your mouth closed and not eating” Madar (my mom) would always tell me as she reminded me to pray five times a day and flex the muscle of my faith emotionally, spiritually and physically.

Yes, I am ready for the workout

We’re moving in!

As 2012 is wrapping up, TTG and I, along with our lovely queer Muslim ally and producer LoMo are reflecting on an amazing year filled with blessings and community. As we prepare for 2013, TTG has started us off well with moving us to Word Press (yay!) AND most excitingly, comingoutmuslim.com will bring you directly here (double yay!).

To make this our official home, I’ll be moving our blog posts from (comingoutmuslim.squarespace.com) over to Word Press. The Ramadan 2012 blog posts will be chunked, although, I haven’t figured out how best to do it yet so that it’s easily accessible/readable.

As we begin to move in and settle ourselves into a routine of blogging, sharing writing, experiences and of course give updates about the show and all things Coming Out Muslim, please send us ideas, suggestions, feedback and input! You can email us at comingoutmuslim@gmail.com or comment on the site!

For now, I will leave y’all with this post and transfer stuff to and from our other site in between painting a bedroom in our apartment blue!

 

xo W